Thursday, September 20, 2012

Been a little absent, but not gone!

I haven't been around to share my thoughts, my struggles, my life because well, life has gotten a little busy, my thoughts a little tangled, and my struggles too much to put on your shoulders. And although it really hasn't gotten any easier, I'm here to share. I've been reading articles, as I do, in hopes of finding the secret to life or my habits or anything. I came across this one about what not to call your fat friend. Hello Giggles is a site I frequent because it has an association with one of my fav actresses, Zoey Deschanell! (click the link for the article). This article has some truth in it, and some over stated generalizations, but the heart of the message is there.

Fat is not a bad word. In reading through the article I thought of two very specific, okay now three, who this rang true for. My best friend uses the first "but you have such a pretty face." This statement makes me feel "pretty" but not sexy and, at times, like I am the fat girl in the corner. Personally, however, I'd rather be the fat girl in the middle of the dance floor, breaking it down!

My sister and a couple of cousins are guilty of the last listed infraction. "You're not fat." The most hilarious part I find about this, other than the lying to my face and completely ignoring my BMI which states I'm morbidly obese, and the simple known fact of... I'm obviously fat is that they try to say they are so fat... So you're only a good 80+ pounds under my weight, and you're fat but me, again being a good 80+pounds over your weight, I am not fat. That just makes no sense to me and defy's all sense and logic that is within my body. Whatever. When they say it, and I point out the obvious, they say, "Well, no. It's different." And then we get into "You just don't understand." That's that I... I don't understand. How do I not understand what it's like to not be thin... I'm the furthest from thin. It doesn't matter how much they try to get me to understand I don't believe I ever will.



So the others don't really hold true to me so much, but I have fallen victim to some of these overstated quotes. I figured you might've as well, and maybe her attitude and "umph" might be able to find some humor in what they're saying next time instead of negativity.

In other news, my weight loss has been coming along steadily. I've lost quite a bit more since the last I posted of the 10th of August. Maybe like four pounds or something of the like. I'm still on Weight Watchers quite fervently. I even traveled all the way across Texas to visit my in-laws and stayed on track. My husband was fantastic the entire time. We brought apple slices, grapes, and banana's for snacks on the road and a ton of water, gatorade, and soda's just in case of my car sickness acting up. But, I didn't touch a soda once on the trip. That has shown that I'm changing my life style. We also got out of the hotel room each night... ALL THREE NIGHTS... and walked! We got out into a foreign town and exercised. I can't tell you that I've ever kept to my plan as much in traveling as I did this trip. It has been tough enough for me to stay to my plan at home, let alone not give into the opportunity to make excuses while out in a different city.

That week we came home, last week, it has been drama filled. I'm not going into it, but I've been depressed. We haven't walked since we've gotten back. Saturday we did a lot of moving and shopping, so I've let us slide there, and then Sunday we worked our asses off! I'm still sore from every muscle on my dorsal side! My back muscles, both shoulder's, my thigh, calves and gluteus are all super sore from redecorating, painting and moving of furniture as well as a serious deep cleaning of our house. It was a very well spent Labor Day weekend!